It took me forever to understand why in Islam we must love the Prophet Mohammed SAAW. I couldn’t apprehend why I had to love someone I never met or why it was so essential in my faith. Many had given me theoretical answers to my doubts. They were convincing but dry, I couldn’t feel them. A kind and truly close person to my heart advised me to continuously send my prayers (salawat) to the prophet and see what effect it had on me.
Still in doubt, I decided to give it a try as I had nothing to lose.
It began as a chore. Every time I found myself with nothing to do on the train, or waiting at the clinic, I would force myself to keep sending my prayers to the prophet. I wasn’t used to it yet so it felt heavy on my tongue.
As my tongue grew accustomed to the phrase, my mind began adding rhythm to it and reflecting upon it. Then, in any free time I had between classes or during my commute, I began instinctively repeating the phrase as if it were a constant echo in my mind, “Allahum Masaly Ala Mohammed”. At times when I would daydream and forget, I would suddenly feel an empty and painful void in my heart, as if I was deeply missing someone.
Soon enough, I started seeking comfort in sending my prayers to the prophet SAAW, is if he was there to hear my troubles and cheer me up.
Through his mention, I have grown to love him. My heart has grown to yearn his company, advice and wisdom. He was a man who carried mountains of burden on his shoulders in order to deliver a great faith. The faith that lights the hearts of many till this day. He was a man who cried the nights in prayer, asking for the mercy of his people. He was a man who revolutionized every concept of creed, character and humanity. He is the reason I live Islam in my every breath. If I have ever tasted the sweetness of faith, it was thanks to his courage and devotion.
And so here I am in the constant mention of a man who has touched my heart, although centuries apart, eagerly waiting to meet him and tell him the effect he had on me.
– January 21 2017